Hazy shade of winter

November 16th, 2010

The stories being gathered under The Crack In Everything are already wonderful. I thought I’d share one of the sources of light in my week, with the hope that you’ll be inspired to add your own.

I was catching up with a girlfriend last night, having one of those visits where we really check in with each other–when the question”how are you?” actually means something.

I told her I’d been feeling out of sorts the past few days, though I wasn’t sure why. Maybe pre-holiday stress, I guessed. Or my birthday next week.

“I’ve been having these morbid anxieties,” I confessed. “Nothing specific, just reckoning with mortality. I don’t know what’s triggered it.” I frowned, frustrated at my inability to tie my moodiness up in a neat analytical bow.

My friend refilled my glass of wine and smiled, like she had a really good joke to lay on me.

“You know, I’ve been thinking about the weather this week, and wondering how you’re doing with the grey skies, and the cold.”

It took me a minute. Because from Halloween to Groundhog Day, I have the brain of a primitive squirrel.

“I go through this every year, don’t I?”

My friend laughed and nodded.

“The clocks go back, and the sun goes away, and I’m all, IT’S COLD AND DARK AND WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE.”

“Yes,” she giggled mirthfully.

“Well, damn,” I said, grinning. “Thank you for reminding me.”

“That’s the beautiful thing about being friends for years,” she said. “We remember.”

No Responses to “Hazy shade of winter”

  1. newfie_girl says:

    That IS the beautiful thing about friends.

  2. ashley says:

    My husband goes through this. Every single year.

    P.S. Birthday next week? Mine is the 26th. Happy Early Birthday to us!

  3. Crystal M says:

    I go through this yearly, too. November and the beginning of December are my worst times. 🙂

    Happy Early Birthday!

  4. Diane says:

    So true – the wonder of friendship and the dark of winter.

  5. angela says:

    i love the line “tie my moodiness up in a neat analytical bow”. i’m surprised i haven’t yet uttered this line being a semi-philosopher but if it’s alright by you, i think i’m going to have to start using it. 🙂

  6. Mariellen says:

    December 2nd here! hooray!

    Actually, if you are prone to seasonal affective disorder, (SAD) you can get lights to work by which might help too, if you want to go that route, not every one does.

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